Day Two

 Today hit different. Not sad. Not bored. Not even demotivated.

The best way I can put it? I felt… let down. Not by anyone in particular—just this weird energy hanging over me. Rare feeling for me.

Here’s how the day played out:

I woke up around 7, thanks to my dad. We had a visitor—his cousin and maybe his girlfriend? Or wife? Who even knows these days. People are complicated. Anyway, I served them breakfast, they left around 9, and then I was alone at home.

So I asked myself: What meaningful thing am I gonna do today?
Since I hadn’t planned the night before, I just went with the first good thought: clean the kitchen.

You remember those roaches from Day One? Yeah, they’re still part of the story. Two hours of work later, tossing out old hotpots and random junk we didn’t need, the kitchen was looking sharp. Tired as hell, but satisfied. And while scrubbing dishes, a thought hit me:

👉 “Sometimes life isn’t about adding more things. It’s about removing the unnecessary.”

Not bad, huh? From now on, call me Kspear 😂.

After lunch, the question came back: what next?
I wanted to learn React (a JavaScript framework), but the WiFi bill wasn’t paid. Solo training? Too tired. Nap? I hate daytime naps.

So I bought bundles and hit up my friends online. And… yeah. Big mistake. Or maybe not? I was scrolling Instagram and, boom, big booties everywhere 😂. I’m not gonna lie, I love big booties. But no hate for the small ones—I’ve got love for all 😂. Anyway, one thing led to another, and I ended up busting a nut. No regrets though. That’s what no birthday sex does to a man 🥲.

But here’s the thing: instead of sitting in post-nut clarity all day, I called my teammate. He told me we had an away friendly. I hadn’t trained with the team for two weeks, so I knew I wasn’t starting. Still, playing the beautiful game > wasting the day.

Second half came, I got subbed in. Didn’t have my best performance, but it wasn’t trash either. Small win, and I’ll take it. And that’s when the weird “let down” feeling started creeping in.

So now you’re probably asking, “How does this all connect to being the greatest footballer in Kenya?” Truth is, I’m asking myself the same thing. Two days in, and I don’t feel like I’ve been locked in.

That’s why I called my mom and told her I’d go study at her workplace tomorrow. That means sacrificing football training for a few days, but it’s necessary. I need to finish school, build something meaningful in tech, and set myself up for opportunities abroad.

Because here’s the truth:
⚽ My football dream depends on what I can offer outside football too.
That’s what will make me the greatest—on and off the pitch. And that’s rare.

Goodnight.